Wednesday, August 3, 2016

I hate the phrase it could be worse, it undermines what that person is dealing with and can I fact make things worse. I've had that term used on my snd since I'm good at putting myself dorm it AIDS me into doing it. Makes me think your right it could be worse why am I being so weak/stupid with what's going on when others have it worse. And all that does is increase the self blaming and throw me deeper into what ever depression and or anxiety I am having at the moment.

I don't know why I am writing this I know my insomnia has been bad and getting worse and I'm just exhausted beyond reason and just wishing for a good night sleep. There is so much I need to get done and it's hard to do with no sleep I'm functioning but not succeeding and hating it all right now. I just want t some sleep. 

Monday, August 1, 2016


So sorry for my lack of post my insomnia is kicking my ass and I haven't been in the right state of mind to write. Honestly not really am now just figured I'd give a short update. Hubby is still not all that great they are trying to find the correct dosages to work correctly. I finished season 3 of Orphan Black haven't watched season 4 it's not free on prime and so decided to find something else to watch which I never have. Watch the first season/ episode of Sherlock and will be watching the other two. Definitely enjoyed it more then I expected. Not much else going on boys had dentist appointment today and they both did well.

First pic was from six months ago second today boys sure are growing!