Cinder by Marissa Meyer (book review)

One genre of books I enjoy reading is rehashed fairy tales I really love the series The Wide Awake Princess, just a very cute read I believe I still have one more book to read in the series, When I get around to it I will try to do a book review of the last book and the series in general. If you like series based off of fairy tales I do recommend that one its just fun.

Because of my love of this genre I decided to pick up the YA novel Cinder. This story occurs in the future after World War IV I believe and is in New Beijing. I liked the story, not love. A lot was predictable and somethings could have been explained better. Cinde(a.k.a Cinderella) is a cyborg who became one due to a terrible accident. After someone becomes a cyborg they are seen as second hand citizens. The only explanation for that is they received a second chance as life so have less rights then others, which seems odd to me but whatever. I wonder if they see them as less because Cinder is partially controlled by her machine parts, when she has some extreme emotional  response it forces her to come down, and she is unable to cry.

It wasn't a terrible book but while reading it I decided not to read the next one. And yet I am now reading the second book called Scarlet. Which is about Cinder and Scarlet, little red riding hood, i haven't read much into the book but  I'll try to do a review on it as well. I have read two other books both Start Wars which I may or may not get around to reviewing, will see if my motivation stays around long enough for that. My current state of mind hasn't been the right one for writing.

Motivation were did you go?

It's not been a great few weeks/months. With the boys been getting sick over and over and my youngest pediatrician wants him tested for speech and possibly behavioral therapy. It's been rough to say the least and has been taking its toll on me. First of I'm scared they going to diagnose Aiden with stuff I know he does not have, he is not adhd just a rambunctious four year old. How have I come to this conclusion? His doctor and dentist appointments show that he can be very well behaved and follow all directions. When it comes to doctors he is overall the perfect little patient. So yes this has put me on edge.

Now add what happened two weeks ago I know Aiden has issues with colds, it usually ends in an ear infection, but this last one was different hubby had bronchitis the week before this which yes had me worried. The night of April fourth Aiden started acting sick slight cough normal cold like symptoms next morning same thing I dropped him off at grandma's and went to work. Called at three and she said he seemed worse but was ok, hour and a half later she called in a panic he was worse and needed me to get there ASAP. Thankfully my back up was there and I ran out the door got home to s little boy's whose breathing was very wheezy you could here every breath. I called his pediatrician who told me to either go to primaries medical center or a kid care. I went straight to a kid care because it was a five minute drive versus 45. Once there and at the desk it was mere minutes before we were taking straight back his breathing was that bad.

To breathing treatments and shot of steroids later we were doing ye waiting game to decide if we were heading home or heading up to Primaries. Thsnkfully it all worked out and we were able to go home but it was close. Aiden was almost sent up to Primariea and a possible night stay. During it all I stayed calm and through the next day remained so gave him gees thing treatments was given an inhaler for him and I just stayed home from work and took care of him.

That night though hit me hard I checked him every hour scared that he would again have breathing issues. It was a rough exhuasting night full of panic attacks. At one point I touched him and he felt cold which caused me to freak out and scared the poor kid. After I settled him down I recovered him with the blanket he had kicked off and waited for my pounding heart to calm down.

The next day at work was not an easy one. First I came into a mess my back up did little, rush missed room a mess. Being already exhausted close to having another panic attack I was emotions let fucked up. Close to either crying or screaming and due to complete exhaustion I was having a really hard time talking. Words were just not coming out right or at all. Aiden was seemingly better but I was not. I got more sleep that night and I just wanted to survive Friday and have a weekend to hopefully calm my anxiety and pull me out if the depression I was in. I can only explain what I had as ptsd I thought we were done with some of this stuff he had been doing better! It had been two years since he needed a breathing treatment, no more primaries. Found out I was living in a fantasy world that this kid could still end up there because his problems were fixed but not cured. Guess it just hit me hard :/.

He seemed much better on Friday then Saturday  morning he woke up screaming and pointing at his ear. Not new to this I grabbed my phone and got him an appointment to see his doctor. As suspected he had an ear infection and his cough was back and worse suspecting the start if bronchitis I ended up giving him breathing treatments for the weekend to stop it from getting worse and not getting pneumonia.

He is much better now but I feel like I'm questioning my own sanity partially because I sometimes feel like I'm doing most of this alone hubby just doesn't do much. Like today I had to work for a while left early and when I called about going home found out he hadn't fed himself or the boys so I had to get food for them. Get home to a very messy livi g room one I had cleaned up yesterday. I'm trying to do the best I can but I don't feel like it's good enough no matter what I do it's not enough. I'm just tired and numb as of late and hoping at some point I'll be strong again just not right now. 

Tv shows

Posting on here is definitely going to be occasional. Life has just been very busy only about 30 percent through the book I am reading been very slow going. Kept up with the shows we've been watching well mostly. Not even watching that many. Current watching list is: The Walking Dead, Agent Carter ( ok season just finished so now Agents of Shield, Arrow, Flash and DC's Legends. The last one I'm still in the fence on. Tried watching Super Girl but just couldn't get into to much clique which most of the DC shows have annoyingly been doing this year. They just haven't been as good as normal and well Super Girl? I've never been a huge fan of the superman genre so just couldn't get into it.

Overall I enjoyed Agent Carter and hoping they do another season. Not sure if they will rumors are flying that it won't happen since the main actress signed on to another series, but she claims she can do both.

Now in the subject about more seasons here's hoping they do another season of X-Files or a movie SOMETHING please? Cause I can't handle were they ended it. It was so good and then bam! WTF!! That's all I will say about that right now.

Have been enjoying Walking Dead more there back to more of the core characters but Carol has been strangley absent :/. Though I like were they went with Michoine and Rick just hope that doesn't mean she will end up dead I like her more then Rick. The actress is going to be here  at Fan X which is at the end of the month. But I only have a Thursday ticket and she won't be here that day. I have issues with hug crowds so any other day at the cons puts me into hug panic attacks. So unfortunately most of the bigger actors do not come on the first day so I miss out on that but I keep my sanity.

The one Saturday I did go to I did not last all day and it ended up with me finding a somewhat empty back room to try and recollect myself before trying to muddle through the crowd once more.

And lastly now Warching Walking Dead and there's Carol LOL!

Work, work, work

Sorry for my lack of and shortly written posts. This has been my main view the past few weeks: 

Been coming on to work everyday since the beginning  of the month. Once again a lab had a disaster and I've been coming in for my normal hours during the week and some extra on the weekend setting up that lab's samples. On one hand being in there shoes before ( the lab I work out burned down  a year and a half ago.

Well ok it was more water damage then fire damage but still the building was a total loss. Thankfully they had good insurance and we kept being paid during the period of finding a new building. They even made sure that we had our medical insurance which was a blessing considering my youngest went in for surgery on his neck during that transition.

So what I was tying to get at was yes I understand how much it sucks to deal with that but it doesn't make me any less tired. I'm way behind on reading started reading the novel adaptation of The Force Awakens and I'm only one  Chapter in. Not in love with the writing style very much it's  jumpy between the  characters feel like I have to stop and figure out who it is from paragraph to paragraph. Probably like this post been trying to write it all day and with a tired mind here's hoping some of it makes sense! Think I'll stop here because I've lost my train of thought :(.

The Walking Dead

I will be writing about this season and last nights episode and so if you have yet to see either spoilers ahead! You have been warned.

 

Before last nights episode I have been rather disappointed with this season. Most of the characters have had much less screen time and less moments of their character. Just been more of Alexander's people which can be ok is the characters were written well but some just were not that good.

I really didn't care for Jessie she felt very two dimensional and connection between her and Rick felt very forced. They just didn't have on screen chemistry so though the one part last night was bloody and shocking, poor Carl, it didn't bug me that much. Have Rick the push to push to show what he can do, like he did back at the prison. Overall last night episode was a reflection of what walking dead used to be like we had moments with all the characters showing them as there true selves. Daryl kicked ass and the Alexander people who survived are the characters I actual was beginning to like and in my opinion had better character development then Jessie and her boys.

The heart mom/ lab tech geek view.

My youngest was born with a heart defect and had open heart surgery when he was seven days old. It changed my view on many things including how I watched some movies, one in particular. When I first watched Terminator Salvation  one part seemed dumb but a just ignored it and moved on but years later after joining the heart world and learning more that one part of the movie I simply can not stand. The part I am talking about is the heart transplant when I first saw it I just shrugged and moved on, but now? It bugs the hell out of me. First off it's not that simple! The chance that the heart is compatible is 1 in 10,000. And even if they're blood and anti bodies due match no anti rejection drugs? Yeah good luck living long. The body will see the donor heart as a foreign object and will attack it causing the person to go into heart failure and eventual death. And that's if, if he survived the surgery which how could he? They were doing it outside in a nonsterile enviroment without life support! My son's surgery was easy compared to this  and he still needed life support. His heart was stopped and blood was pumped through the machine to oxygenate it while they replaced his aorta with a aorta from a donor. The movie over simplified a very complex surgery and yes this bugs me. People tend to look for movies for some ideas of how things work and showing it that wrong is beyond annoying.

The other thing that can bug me with shows is using random chemical names to describe something. They like to do this with flash and arrow. One was talking about sodium hypochlorite saying false information about it knowing not everyone will know it's common name, bleach. I do because we call it by that name at work. My hubby laughs when I go off on the tv when they say a fancy xhemical name when it's something everyone knows with s more simple name. I know it's silly and not a big deal but it annoys me ;).

Life got a bit busy the last few weeks again. In my spare time aka the weekends been helping my family with cleaning out my grandparent's house. Grandfather died last year and house officially signed over yesterday to the new owners. Been a not a easy task so much stuff can be collected over a lifetime. What to keep? Donate? Throw out? Also either the mold or dust in the house did not react kindly to me. Still feeling off two days later. I took a few things including dolls I loved since I was a little girl to an old sex education book from the early 1900's. This book has brought me a lot of laughs so far. Apparently boy like older women when they are 14-15 years old is like having the measles, they'll get over i. And to much of it will make the sex organs stop working. I'll do a much better post later when time is more permitting. Have a great day all!