Tasty Science

It's been a bit of a long weekend since hubby can't do much yet, and well money is a little low after getting hit with $350 by the ER and $119 in medicine. Makes it a but difficult to pay for much. And playing out in our backyard has been hard to. Our neighbors has a dick for a dog who always barks at us and tries to jump the short fence which I had been hoping to replace this year. I just do not trust that dog. I have taken them out back a few times but the dog is ALWAYS there and it seems either neighbor never is or just doesn't give a damn. Why do people have dogs who never ever take care of them? Every house I have ever lived at ended up with a next door neighbor who had a dog that they  never really take care of. Just leave them back there and never stop them from barking ever. At least this one cleans up after them its more then I can say for the last two.

So anyways been  trying to keep the boys happy and busy. I bought a kit a while back for Connor called Tasty Science, it has science projects that you can eat.

We tried two of them today first a fizzy drink that made the boys laugh a lot. Thankfully I added the water over the sink because it bubbled everywhere. It was fun to make but not all that tasty. Next we made cookies where one half we used blue food dye and the other half none. Its  suppose to show how looks can make people biased towards it. I umm.... biased it because the dye was thick and hard to mix in (seriously is sucked) and I thought after cooking the blue ones I added vanilla to the others. Both were not bad but the vanilla ones were better next time we do this when I by decent food color dye to try thee real experiment we can.

Also the way they had us cut put the cookies made them tiny and I mean tiny; like quarter size, which OK it is for tasting so they should be small but it made a few cook rather hard cause of how small they are. Still Connor had fun and he really wants to try the rock candy, but I do not have a clean clear jar.  so that will just have to wait, but if and or when we do, do that one I'll take pictures because if it works that one has the potential to be pretty fun. Only problem is it takes more then a week to do that one and Connor has no patience and I mean no patience with these kind of things. He asked me about 5 times if the cookies were ready when they were cooking for 12 minutes. We will just see how that one goes.

When it rains it pours.

In a blink of an eye your whole world can change. I've had moments in my life that have completely changed everything.

This little guy being a prime example. I like to think ahead to make plans of what to do in my life. i am learning with a steep learning curve that planning rarely works and one moment can will change everything. One such major moment in time for my little family started last Friday. My husband, Kaleo, known by our internet friends had been having problems with his blood pressure. Earlier that week he went to see our family Doctor and yes his blood pressure was screaming high. They increased his blood pressure meds but five days later he was not feeling well.  He was feeling pressure on his heart and just felt off and could no longer ignore it. He was scared and needed answers. So much so he was going to go to the ER at 9 at night alone. Not wanting that I made a quick call to my parent's and got the boys to my parent's house.turns out his blood pressure was still high even though the pressure cuff we had at home showed he was OK. Obviously it was wrong and he was admitted that night to the hospital so they could get him under better control with new meds.

New normal

It's only Wednesday and this week can be over already. It's been a not so easy week to say the least and for once it's not work stressing me out its just well life. Hubby has high blood pressure (it's genetic) and the medicine he has been taking for taking for ten years Isn't working anymore and his blood pressure as been very high. They have given him new medicine were just waiting to see if it will keep his numbers more normal, so far he's still high but he goes back Monday were they will if needed tweak his meds again hopefully they get it figured out fast. He hasn't been feeling well for obvious reasons. Just want him feeling better for Sunday we get to go see Captain America Civil War that day :). 

On top of that my youngest is sick again and he always takes it to the next level .

See what I mean? This was this morning his third treatment since last night. He was super grumpy after this but once the Tylenol kicked in he was back to his usual self, just wish he had a better night. Hoping this does not turn into something more, poor guy ends up with an ear infection with about a third of the colds he gets :/. Not fair.

Because of all this decided to read s book called The Butned Bridges of Ward, Nebraska.

It's suppose to be just a funny book about a single mom living in a small town. So far? Eh it takes a lot to make me laugh most things that people are as funny just don't work for me. Take the new Ghostbusters coming out, not my kind of humor at all I'll watch it when it comes out on tv, but definitely not in the theaters. I'll also keep reading the book I'm not that far into it just on page forty do it has time to redeem itself. The one good thing about the book? I got free because I have Amazon prime, do that helps.

Scarlet by Marrisa Meyer: book review

I tried with this book I really did I know a lot of people like it, it has some great reviews on goodreads but I had a hard time with it,  basically had to force myself to finish the damn thing. So where to begin?  Well first off this book had the one part that I hate most in stories in general. Call it my biggest story Pete peeve as it were its making  characters stupid for no other reason but to have added shock values ate ron the story. I can't stand this in books or shoes or movies..don't get me started on the second Jurrasic Patk movie. So in Scarlet one of the msin characters, Cinder, has a big secret that she isn't hiding all that well. She basically tells one of the other characters her secret and he seems to not hear it and she moves on to another subject. Honestly this thing drives me crazy. When he finally founds out the truth even with all the facts in front of his face he can't seem to believe it bleh.

Another book a classic that I read out of curiosity Dracula, also used this pet peeve of mine in the story. The main characters get Van Helsing to help hunt down vampires. And somehow even though he is the world expert he nor anyone else could understand howanother  character kept walking up pale, weak and suddenly wearing a scarf around her neck. OMG some expert he was that character was annoying anyways back to Scarlet the description in the book wasn't as good as the first felt in the first I got a decent look at Cinder but books to felt like I was an outsider not fully seeing the picture,

My last problem was the new relationship developed in the book felt forced didn't care for it though admittingly I'm also not a huge fan of romance novels so that probably effects my views on it as well. Overall it was ok doubt I'll be reading more from this series.  In fact I may stay aeay from YA books for s while need books with more detail which YA books don't have. Need more Game of Thrones detail...Ok maybe not THAT much detail just more.

Cinder by Marissa Meyer (book review)

One genre of books I enjoy reading is rehashed fairy tales I really love the series The Wide Awake Princess, just a very cute read I believe I still have one more book to read in the series, When I get around to it I will try to do a book review of the last book and the series in general. If you like series based off of fairy tales I do recommend that one its just fun.

Because of my love of this genre I decided to pick up the YA novel Cinder. This story occurs in the future after World War IV I believe and is in New Beijing. I liked the story, not love. A lot was predictable and somethings could have been explained better. Cinde(a.k.a Cinderella) is a cyborg who became one due to a terrible accident. After someone becomes a cyborg they are seen as second hand citizens. The only explanation for that is they received a second chance as life so have less rights then others, which seems odd to me but whatever. I wonder if they see them as less because Cinder is partially controlled by her machine parts, when she has some extreme emotional  response it forces her to come down, and she is unable to cry.

It wasn't a terrible book but while reading it I decided not to read the next one. And yet I am now reading the second book called Scarlet. Which is about Cinder and Scarlet, little red riding hood, i haven't read much into the book but  I'll try to do a review on it as well. I have read two other books both Start Wars which I may or may not get around to reviewing, will see if my motivation stays around long enough for that. My current state of mind hasn't been the right one for writing.

Motivation were did you go?

It's not been a great few weeks/months. With the boys been getting sick over and over and my youngest pediatrician wants him tested for speech and possibly behavioral therapy. It's been rough to say the least and has been taking its toll on me. First of I'm scared they going to diagnose Aiden with stuff I know he does not have, he is not adhd just a rambunctious four year old. How have I come to this conclusion? His doctor and dentist appointments show that he can be very well behaved and follow all directions. When it comes to doctors he is overall the perfect little patient. So yes this has put me on edge.

Now add what happened two weeks ago I know Aiden has issues with colds, it usually ends in an ear infection, but this last one was different hubby had bronchitis the week before this which yes had me worried. The night of April fourth Aiden started acting sick slight cough normal cold like symptoms next morning same thing I dropped him off at grandma's and went to work. Called at three and she said he seemed worse but was ok, hour and a half later she called in a panic he was worse and needed me to get there ASAP. Thankfully my back up was there and I ran out the door got home to s little boy's whose breathing was very wheezy you could here every breath. I called his pediatrician who told me to either go to primaries medical center or a kid care. I went straight to a kid care because it was a five minute drive versus 45. Once there and at the desk it was mere minutes before we were taking straight back his breathing was that bad.

To breathing treatments and shot of steroids later we were doing ye waiting game to decide if we were heading home or heading up to Primaries. Thsnkfully it all worked out and we were able to go home but it was close. Aiden was almost sent up to Primariea and a possible night stay. During it all I stayed calm and through the next day remained so gave him gees thing treatments was given an inhaler for him and I just stayed home from work and took care of him.

That night though hit me hard I checked him every hour scared that he would again have breathing issues. It was a rough exhuasting night full of panic attacks. At one point I touched him and he felt cold which caused me to freak out and scared the poor kid. After I settled him down I recovered him with the blanket he had kicked off and waited for my pounding heart to calm down.

The next day at work was not an easy one. First I came into a mess my back up did little, rush missed room a mess. Being already exhausted close to having another panic attack I was emotions let fucked up. Close to either crying or screaming and due to complete exhaustion I was having a really hard time talking. Words were just not coming out right or at all. Aiden was seemingly better but I was not. I got more sleep that night and I just wanted to survive Friday and have a weekend to hopefully calm my anxiety and pull me out if the depression I was in. I can only explain what I had as ptsd I thought we were done with some of this stuff he had been doing better! It had been two years since he needed a breathing treatment, no more primaries. Found out I was living in a fantasy world that this kid could still end up there because his problems were fixed but not cured. Guess it just hit me hard :/.

He seemed much better on Friday then Saturday  morning he woke up screaming and pointing at his ear. Not new to this I grabbed my phone and got him an appointment to see his doctor. As suspected he had an ear infection and his cough was back and worse suspecting the start if bronchitis I ended up giving him breathing treatments for the weekend to stop it from getting worse and not getting pneumonia.

He is much better now but I feel like I'm questioning my own sanity partially because I sometimes feel like I'm doing most of this alone hubby just doesn't do much. Like today I had to work for a while left early and when I called about going home found out he hadn't fed himself or the boys so I had to get food for them. Get home to a very messy livi g room one I had cleaned up yesterday. I'm trying to do the best I can but I don't feel like it's good enough no matter what I do it's not enough. I'm just tired and numb as of late and hoping at some point I'll be strong again just not right now. 

Tv shows

Posting on here is definitely going to be occasional. Life has just been very busy only about 30 percent through the book I am reading been very slow going. Kept up with the shows we've been watching well mostly. Not even watching that many. Current watching list is: The Walking Dead, Agent Carter ( ok season just finished so now Agents of Shield, Arrow, Flash and DC's Legends. The last one I'm still in the fence on. Tried watching Super Girl but just couldn't get into to much clique which most of the DC shows have annoyingly been doing this year. They just haven't been as good as normal and well Super Girl? I've never been a huge fan of the superman genre so just couldn't get into it.

Overall I enjoyed Agent Carter and hoping they do another season. Not sure if they will rumors are flying that it won't happen since the main actress signed on to another series, but she claims she can do both.

Now in the subject about more seasons here's hoping they do another season of X-Files or a movie SOMETHING please? Cause I can't handle were they ended it. It was so good and then bam! WTF!! That's all I will say about that right now.

Have been enjoying Walking Dead more there back to more of the core characters but Carol has been strangley absent :/. Though I like were they went with Michoine and Rick just hope that doesn't mean she will end up dead I like her more then Rick. The actress is going to be here  at Fan X which is at the end of the month. But I only have a Thursday ticket and she won't be here that day. I have issues with hug crowds so any other day at the cons puts me into hug panic attacks. So unfortunately most of the bigger actors do not come on the first day so I miss out on that but I keep my sanity.

The one Saturday I did go to I did not last all day and it ended up with me finding a somewhat empty back room to try and recollect myself before trying to muddle through the crowd once more.

And lastly now Warching Walking Dead and there's Carol LOL!